Here I go again D:

I feel like, ever since I moved home that is, that I've become a more,
oh,
solitary person.
And I think I've gotten a little meaner too D:
My patience runs out quicker.
I'm not as happy.

I don't know.

I pray this is just a phase I'll get over eventually.

...Where to begin.

First things first.

I want to apologize.

I want to apologize for falling off the face of the planet and becoming a lost artifact.

I'm sorry for not taking the initiative to say hello.
I have an incredibly hard time doing that. Really, I do.
I don't know why.
I'm a very, very, very unsociable person.
I'm not outgoing.
If it seems I am it's a mask I'm wearing.

So I'm sorry.
I blame myself for completely shutting off all contact.
Why?
I don't know.
If I want to talk I always wait to have something to talk about.
As of late.

I have nothing to talk about.
Nothing.
Zilch.
Nada.

So I'm sorry I haven't texted you to say hi, how's it going.
I'm sorry I haven't read your blogs.
Or emailed you.
Or facebooked you.

And it's not just you, it's every living, breathing person I've ever come into contact with.

And again I say I'm sorry.

But.

I don't want to stab you in the heart.

But,

I'm happy.

Sort of.