Here I go again D:

I feel like, ever since I moved home that is, that I've become a more,
oh,
solitary person.
And I think I've gotten a little meaner too D:
My patience runs out quicker.
I'm not as happy.

I don't know.

I pray this is just a phase I'll get over eventually.

...Where to begin.

First things first.

I want to apologize.

I want to apologize for falling off the face of the planet and becoming a lost artifact.

I'm sorry for not taking the initiative to say hello.
I have an incredibly hard time doing that. Really, I do.
I don't know why.
I'm a very, very, very unsociable person.
I'm not outgoing.
If it seems I am it's a mask I'm wearing.

So I'm sorry.
I blame myself for completely shutting off all contact.
Why?
I don't know.
If I want to talk I always wait to have something to talk about.
As of late.

I have nothing to talk about.
Nothing.
Zilch.
Nada.

So I'm sorry I haven't texted you to say hi, how's it going.
I'm sorry I haven't read your blogs.
Or emailed you.
Or facebooked you.

And it's not just you, it's every living, breathing person I've ever come into contact with.

And again I say I'm sorry.

But.

I don't want to stab you in the heart.

But,

I'm happy.

Sort of.

9:00 am

At this time, I had finished filling out all my paper work and was on my way back to my room. I swiped my ID card into the reader to get back into the dorm and it blinked red at me. I tried again. Still red. Thankfully a friend was heading out and was able to let me in.

At this time, I was no longer a student at ACU.

Will I miss it? Yes. Terribly. The environment is something like a second home. It's friendly, welcoming, small and cozy, and my greatest friends are there.

But life says I need a degree to be successful. If I'm going to get a degree, I want it to be in something I enjoy.

At ACU I was a 2D major. Meaning, everything not having to do with digital art.

Digital art is my forte.

For this semester I am going to go to Richland Community college and get my core classes done, and maybe take a painting class so I'll be listed as a full time student.

In the fall I will hopefully go to UNT and graduate with a degree in animation. Unless another college catches my fancy.

Am I scared? Yes. When I came to ACU I had an older sister to show me around. At Richland, I won't.

I'll be on my own.

It's 10:00 am.

...Wanna know how bad I don't want to be here?

To the point where I'm shaking in misery.

Literally. I feel like a chihuahua right now.

My stomach hurts.

I feel depressed.

I don't want to be here.

Yes I'm glad to see the people.

....

AGH.

OH. MY GOODNESS.

For the longest time I actually FORGOT that I had a blog!

and you know what!

My animation has been done since CHRISTMAS!

Oh dear oh dear I'm sorry!

But here here here watch it 8D

Click here!